Under da hood

Picking It Up.

2012-01-22T01:38:00.002+08:00

These days I have been slowly but surely trying to be more organised.

Setting reminders in my phone to give myself tasks for the day to avoid procrastination.

Clearing my desk to feel less cluttered.

I'm trying to keep close to my tasks for the day.

I want to take it one more level.

I want an organiser.

I need to plan days ahead, no more day by day.

I always believe that creative people are messy people, but then again..

If creative people are messy, then what are organised people?

Left brained thinkers is what they are!

So.. If a right brained person were to be as organised as a left brained person,

that would mean he is a well rounded individual!

This is what I aim to be, well rounded. haha

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The past few days have been pretty sad and grim.

But that hasn't gotten to me,

I don't feel taken down by all these already.

It doesn't weigh down on me so much because I have more faith.

I didn't realise that till today.

I didn't realise I wasn't affected so much anymore.

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I am beginning to like Muay Thai alot,

I always go to training with Vongola,

but this time, on friday,

I went with Jia Xian.

It was pretty fun!

I "sparred" with him , it didn't feel like a real one because I just couldn't get serious.

I kept laughing and then trying to get serious then laughing again.

Besides that, I have been coming home and sleeping early.

This week my health was all over the place.

I had stomach aches , diarrhoea, head throbbings.

Felt kinda lonely also, but it wasn't a big part of the week.

Well, the week before, I went had a great dinner at Tung Lok Orchard Central with Vongola.

ATE 88 ICE CREAM PUFFS TOGETHER!

Awesome much.

Great buffet!

The day after I met up with Jasmine's clique for their reunion dinner.

Very fun,

Not so awkward already.

I tried talking cock and being a little more nonsensical.

Guess that worked out!

haha, I was kinda nervous and shy actually.

I don't know why.

Guess I have never met up with my girlfriend's clique for reunion dinner before.

Kind of new to me.

Was afraid I would piss someone off.

Something I am always capable of doing at this kind of meet ups.

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Today I laid in bed,

Just retreated into my mental playground.

Thinking about my relationship with Jasmine.

Went through the whole journey together.

We were kinda crazy. Haha

Adventurous.

I mean,

Visit to JB ?

Malaysia Trip?

Anyway, I realised something.

She fit so seamlessly into my life.

I don't have to readjust anything,

I just had to refine what I have.

Its not like anything I have ever encountered.

I find this pretty cool. :)

It was like, just a moment ago, we were just an awkward couple.

Now, its so different!:D

YAY for us! :D

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Alright, time for bed! Driving tomorrow! :D

Management.

2012-01-16T09:08:00.003+08:00

Time and again I failed to spend my money wisely.

I think I need to do accounting for my money already.

Its not like I am still a kid now, I am almost an adult already.

Time to live like one.

First I need a notebook and a file!

An Organizer should be good too.

Time to do everything in a proper manner, no more prancing about in life no more.

I need a list of things I must correct before next year.

Shall do it now!

1) Spend wisely

2) Save money

3) Plan my time

4) Be organised

Maybe I should put that on some part of my blog so it will be permanent.

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Happy 9 Months Jasmine!

This Image is abit blur, but you look so cute in this one! :D

It was an awesome day out! :D

Glad to have someone like you near me though not physically. :)

Partially Relieved

2012-01-06T10:27:00.003+08:00

I had a long and deep chat with Jasmine yesterday and it felt good.

I never talked to anyone this way before, it was really awesome.

I guess I feel a little better now but there are still things I must change.

1/6/12

Tough Times.

2012-01-05T15:01:00.004+08:00

Its been a really tiring time for me.
Let me list it out for you all-assuming there are actually other readers.

At mid December , I was very worried with work.
Had to do lots of sketching and meet with the standards and deadlines.
Stressed and tired, I was just looking forward to the weekends, but I had to spend it alone.
My friends were busy with common tests and my girlfriend works on the weekends.

Stressed and alone.

Approaching Christmas, the load of work started becoming lighter.
I felt less stress and less lonely.
My friends were free again, but my girlfriend still was not.

Christmas day was the biggest ride of my life.
I woke up feeling glad I would finally meet Jasmine again, so happy that I could spend a whole day with her.

Then my mum told me to collect some christmas food for her.
Normally, I wouldn't mind collecting, but this time, it was because she took on the duties of other aunties.
In other words, she passed the shitty work to me.

Then in church I was tasked to go down and place the gifts for gift exchange.
I did not know when was the gift exchange,so I decided to visit the toilet before its too late.

Then when I came back, everyone was going down to place the gifts.
Zhe Wei rushed down to pass it to me.
At this point, Why must I be the one to rush down to place the gifts?
Wasn't my OLDER brother there ?
Couldn't he have taken the gifts down instead?

Okay fine, so I took the gifts downstairs, came back up sweating.

Then my mum passed me offering money to be placed downstairs again!
At this point, there was nobody giving offering already.
Nobody at the stage placing presents or gifts.

I had to go down, embarrassingly place the offering, then go back up again!
Thinking about this now totally makes me pissed.
I finally reached my seat, all sweaty and sticky.

Then my brother asked who will go down and take the gifts again later.
I MEAN SERIOUSLY! CAN"T YOU VOLUNTEER? CAN'T YOU SEE I'M TIRED OF THIS CRAP?
He and my Mum then pointed at me, giving me the task.

I said, no, I don't want to do already. Yet they insisted.
So I chucked the bag that was to hold the gifts to my brother.
I did not want to do it again.

My brother got PISSED at me.

Seriously. What did I do wrong? He was not tasked to do anything for Christmas also!
I HAD TO COLLECT THE FOOD LATER and when my mum asked who can cut fruits for her, he said he couldn't!

I know he could.
So what if he had to visit his girlfriend's family?
He could have gone to the venue and cut the fruits.

Back to the gift collection.
In the end, I HAD TO GO DOWN TO COLLECT THE GIFTS.

Pissed.

Then after church I spent only a few hours with Jasmine.
But it was the best few hours I have ever had.
I really had fun :)
It has been a long while, a very long while.
We ate cold noodles and salmon sashimi at a void deck near her grandmother's place.
Joked, gagged on our food and just simply had fun.
Carefree fun. :)

Sigh, now I am waiting for that day to come again.
All I can do now is to go down after work to visit her for a few hours then head home.
She would be too tired to do anything also.

SO after spending time with Jasmine
I had to go down with her to collect the food at some school.
collected it and went to the venue.

Turns out my mum was not there yet.
Only my uncles,aunties and cousins, I was the first of my family.

My little brother arrived, then my older brother and his girlfriend, then my mum and sister's family.

Turns out that in the end, Jasmine and I had to cut the fruits.
I didn't mind, since it was fun to cut fruits with Jasmine.

Then we carolled ! I KNOW JASMINE ENJOYED THIS PART! :D
That is part of the reason why I asked her along.
I asked her along because I know she will enjoy being around my extended family.
I know she will like it. :D

Goofy, funny, english speaking, no mahjong.
Just the way I like it too. :)

It was real fun
until I received news on the way home that my favourite uncle that took care of me when I was very young died. I drove down to the hospital to see him.

I saw him, laying there lifeless and cold.
Mouth opened, chin wrinkled, looking up to the ceiling , eyes shut.

He died of cancer.
The thing is I just met him the Sunday before Christmas at Chinatown, he still looked healthy to me.
We had a good conversation, something we didn't have for a long time.
That day, I showed him my girlfriend's picture and asked if he found her pretty.
He smiled and said (translated to english):
"The looks do not matter, but the heart does."

That last radiant smile he gave to me will never be forgotten.

Some information about him,

He was a wise man.

He loved his wife even though she asked too much of him and was never satisfied.

His knowledge was pretty extensive.

He spent most of his time going out alone, he wasn't feeling lonely or anything, he is just independent.

He always had wise words to impart onto me.

He took care of me when I was in kindergarten, he would bring me out to Clarke Quay to have a walk, shave my head at the barber and place too much powder on my neck and face.

I remember when I saw a clown at Clarke Quay, I got very scared, but he just looked at me and smiled. That same smile he gave to me the last time I met him.

Good times, now gone.

I was asking God if he was in heaven then I had a feeling of peace.

I asked since his wife said she did not know if he accepted God in his life.

A pastor did see her coincidentally at the level where the ward was, and that pastor prayed for him.

But his wife whom I think, was not there, thought she just prayed a prayer of healing for him.

A few days later, I learnt that the pastor did not just prayed a prayer of healing.

BUT, he also accepted Christ and prayed the sinner's prayer.

I guess, with God , nothing is coincidence.

My final meetup with him and the pastor's presence.

Coincidence? Nope. :)

During the days of his funeral, I had to rush to produce a mock up also.

I was stressed and grieving.

I had but little rest for myself.

My uncle's ashes now lay in Queenstown Methodist Church.

After that period, I had a great time at Sheng Kai's place.

I just let it all out. I drank and drank.

Been so long since I drank so much and talked so much nonsense.

That was new year's countdown.

I spent the next day alone at home.

And the following day I went out with my Mum to buy clothes and stuff.

I wanted to meet Jasmine so badly that night, but it was not possible.

Sigh, what to do.

Now I am typing all these down on my brother's netbook.

Why? Because my laptop is sent for servicing.

I can't do much with this netbook.

I'm just so tired of being constrained.

Now that I have time to do what I want after the mock up, I can't do it.

That means playing games for the whole day and such.

Sigh.

Very tiring.

When will be the day I can rest?

Love is a special thing.

2011-12-17T22:39:00.006+08:00

Went to Tampines Ikea yesterday to have a wholesome meal with Jasmine.
Meatballs, Chicken Wings and Fish!
Got a 5 dollar voucher, so we went to get a soft toy!
A cute baby kangaroo. :D

Then we went sight seeing~

Ever seen Singapore from high grounds before?

Singapore is really small and bright.
It looks pretty cool from a high ground.
Went to Jurong Hill Park to see the horizon of Singapore.
The lighting and sight is a breath taking experience.

After that I took her to see the Snakes and Ladders at Bangla Park.
Discovered there is the Airplane game!
I didn't know that. hahaha

And we went home.
Texted for a long while and then went to bed.

I'm so glad, we haven't had this kind of date for the longest time ever.

Most of the time I rushed down from work to meet her for dinner
and then we went home.
We would be too tired.

A good friend once said: "If you don't intend to marry a person, don't even date that person."

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Today I went out to meet Jasmine for lunch,
after which I took the opportunity to head out to buy Christmas gifts.

Unfortunately after purchasing my first gift , it started pouring and my plans were ruined.

So I headed home to have a good rest.

I think I felt sick from walking in the rain or something. Wasn't sure.

But I was definitely VERY tired for some reason.
I mean, I slept quite abit last night, why would I be tired.
SO I went to bed.

When I woke up it was already 8.45pm!
Sian.
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It has been a month with a wide spectrum of emotions so far.
I am glad for her. For us. :)

Facepalm

2011-12-15T14:53:00.003+08:00

Because I deserve it.

I lost myself in the midst of the past few weeks and its because of the changes in schedules and I am not used to it.

That caused me a whole lot of other lame mini problems I created for myself.

I should stop being depressed and be happy.

Crack my knuckles, stretch and lay back for awhile.

Thinking too much has never done anybody any good, and it will never.

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Nothing much to post really,

Most of the time I'm in work skyrimming or at home,skyrimming.

I don't mean to not do my work, but I took an arrow to my knee.
HAWHAWHAW

No seriously, Skyrim is a force not worth reckoning.
It rapes my mind when I am trying to do my work.

Anyway, I'm almost done shaking it off my mind now.

Work occupies like 20% of my time, skyrim 50%, 20% girlfriend, 10% miscellaneous.

Thats about it for my week so far.

Quite a boring life I lead now, but its fine!

Boss says mock up by end of the month. :(

Guess I have no choice.

Determination

2011-12-08T10:32:00.002+08:00

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed I think.
Today the whole world seems to be so annoying.
Maybe its just me.

I'm just so tired of everything ,
tired of being poor,
tired of worrying about tmr,
tired of not being able to meet Jasmine,
tired of liyan's stupid playlist,
tired of people getting shocked faces when I say I intern in school.

SERIOUSLY, internship in school does not mean I am inhouse!
MY INTERNSHIP IS ONE OF THE BEST PAYING AND BEST EXPERIENTIAL INTERNSHIP OKAY.
No cpf deduction, total freedom for lunch timing, experienced industrial designer guiding us.
I hate people who judge more than anything else.

PDi sucks.
We only had one week break since July.
And our next holiday is in February.

I am really really tired.
I just want to sleep as late as I want and do whatever I want.
I need a breather.
WE need a breather.

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Failed napfa last week.
Thats normal, doesn't affect me at all.

In fact, my shuttle run improved.
Standing broad jump stayed the same,
2.4 stayed the same,
Pull ups stayed the same,
Sit and reach stayed the same,
Sit ups stayed the same.

I don't want to forfeit 2 months outside with Jasmine.

Only for that reason I am trying my best to run every single day.
To do my best and improve as much as I can to pass the next test for that 2 months.

I know I can do it. I just know it.

Weary

2011-11-29T23:51:00.001+08:00

Today started off unlike any other day.
It felt like I held my breath since morning.
I never had an experience like this before.
Hard to swallow.

By afternoon, it didn't feel so bad.
Saw a preview of Skyrim and got intrigued by its simple complexity.

Got distracted by that till 4.30pm.
Then my product was fully ready to be packaged unfortunately.

The parts added was so complicated.
I needed another day or two to finish it up.

Sigh.

Then I met Jasmine at her workplace.
Had dinner and came home.

Everything is fine now, but my heart is still heavy.
Perhaps it is torn and tattered.
And most definitely needs rest.

At a loss for the whole day.
Rewinding and rewinding.

I still cant breathe right though.

In your eyes

2011-11-22T01:14:00.003+08:00

Went for crabbing last week and I did something I would not have thought I'd do.

After Jasmine failed to catch the first crab , I told myself, the next one must be a sure catch because I felt her sadness and disappointment.

So when she caught one, I used my bare hands to scoop it out of the water so that it wouldn't unhook again.

Love makes you do things you wouldn't think of doing.

SHE PLAYS STREET FIGHTER WELL! <3

Today is the first day of internship,
and I thought it would be a sad day in school.
Since it is in school I thought I was a bad student.

But working at the Innovation centre is very interesting.

They create lab equipments that can create a hologram of microscopic samples.
HOLOGRAMS. LASERS. PRISMS.

Stuff of sci-fi shows.
Theres even a mini cryogenic freezer!
If you have watched fringe, they used those things but more humongous to keep humans.

Imagine chilling your beer in that! haha

Anyway, with our limited knowledge of these fantastic creations,
we are required to design a casing for the unsightly hanging wires and exposed parts.

Interesting assignment,
I didn't expect to do product design.

After work, I met Jasmine and Sherwayne for dinner.
They rambled endlessly about their terrible job.
They have to work on public holidays and part a weekend.

Sad much, I hope they get used to it and they get more incentives.
I really do.
I can really feel that sucky feeling of being stuck with that bad situation for 3 months

Talking about internship and everything probably made you think my FYP was over.

IT IS NOT.

I was supposed to have my presentation on 21/11/11 due to a shortage of time on friday.
BUT it was posponed.

For what reason? I don't know.
PDi is really getting on my nerves now.

I went to school all dressed up and worried for my presentation and they pull off such a stunt.

Oh well, adaptation, a good thing to learn.

Nobody likes a whiny shit anyway.

Nights ya'll

Imperfections

2011-10-28T23:49:00.002+08:00

I learnt in my course in poly that these things cause your pencil sketching to turn into real objects on paper.

A sketch of a man wearing a shirt will look real with creases.
A sketch of a man with imperfect features will look real.

Everybody has a gaping hole in their personality.
By covering it with an artificially they will not last.
By showing it real, they gain trust.
By doing their best to seal that hole, gains respect.

These little things cause us to be who we are today.
Where we stand, who we meet and who we keep.

We must all recognize these imperfections, face it and make the best out of it or get rid of it as much as we can.

Just a part in the assembly of life.

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I had the time to ponder over my experiences.
Reflect and understand.
After PDi I have less than no time to do such things.
Trying to balance my social life with work all the time,
making me forget about myself.

I do stuff sometimes, to make things seem more real.

Back to Earth.

It was a crazy time at fyp in studio.
Mr Chok is messing with me.
Making things difficult for me.

The future seems bleak.
but I know I have one.
I know my capabilities, but I do not display.
I know I can do much better, but it seems like I can't get over myself.

It is true that the biggest enemy of everyone is themselves.
No one else can be as douchey to yourself.

Haiz, seems like there will be a barrage of questions about my design on the day of presentation, but I will have to deal with it.

I need to anticipate.
I keep doing that, makes me tired.
Very tired.

But I have to keep on moving.

Seriously, I am going crazy, but I don't want to burden another person with my thoughts.

Nobody can help me but myself now.
I need to pick myself up.
Take the load and move.

When its time to go, its time to go.
Earth sucks.

To God be the glory

2011-10-12T23:32:00.001+08:00

I was drawn to you, I didnt know why.
But I knew as soon as I held you that day.
I felt a feeling I found familiar.
A feeling that helped me throughout my life.

There was a bigger plan, a plan no mere mortal could see.

This love is not normal, or JUST spectacular.
It is God driven.

You brought me closer back to him.
And I in turn.

I heard his faint voice a few times , telling me what to do.
Been so long since I asked God for advice.

There may be a higher purpose for us here,
now i believe even more strongly as you told me about your life bit by bit.

I don't care what other people say when they read this post.
Because few will understand.

To God Be The Glory.
Amen.

Wishes.

2011-09-28T22:07:00.001+08:00

During fyp I have been dreaming too much.
Been in my own bubble for too long.
Doing things at my own pace.

It is time to face reality and speed up.
I need to tell myself that I cannot afford to lose anymore time.

I am even asking too much of people recently,
Setting standards and if they fail me I become sad.

Something is wrong with me.
This isn't me.

I think I am running away.
Running away from work,
From stress,
From responsibility.

Time to get back down to earth,
Grab gravity by the hand ,
Solve problems by the root,
Face the music
And think out of the box.

I will walk into school tomorrow ,
Being someone I knew I was.

Fun.

2011-09-26T22:53:00.001+08:00

I spent my morning in school sleeping and doodling .

In the afternoon I went for an exhbition in japanese creative centre or something.

Its a small place with limited exhibitions
Furthermore it is not related to industrial design in any way.
Waste of time.

After which we went to plaza singapura's arcade and played till andre and joseph arrived.

We went to eat dinner at taka's sushi tei .

I saw stanley! That nerd who couldnt say chee bye in the toilet.
Everyone made fun of him until we graduated.

We had alot of fun at sushi tei.
Though everyone was quite worn out we had loads of fun.

Im on the way home now.

Cheers to the wonders of internet on the go!

Centredness.

2011-09-15T23:53:00.001+08:00

Im losing myself in a whirlwind of stress.
I need to get back to myself.

So much work needs to be done and yet I am just bumming around.

I need to focus again and stop playing.
I cannot live to disappoint.
As have been doing.

I need to get back.
My life is a mess.

Fantasy.

2011-09-14T20:34:00.001+08:00

I just came back from malaysia, sibu.
Very tiring adventure trip.
Spent half the time being tired and stoning. I ate alot of food too, a little too much actually.
Don't even know why i eat so much. Haha

Some highlights of my trip.
I saw a blue sting ray and the usual brown one.
Learnt more about other people's lives.
Enjoyed my time with friends and girlfriend.
Banana boat and flying fish was exhilerating.
Raft building was great too.

It all felt so surreal now that i am back here,back to work tomorrow and im still in my holiday mood.
Not good.

Hate fyp. Absolutely hate it.

Sigh, oh well.

Here we are.

2011-09-11T02:14:00.002+08:00

She is so special to me.

Looking at the journey thus far,
I only just began to realise all the pain we went through to get here.

From awkward to comfort.
From weird to amazing.
From sorrow to joy.

I miss her every fleeting moment of the day, yet it does not overwhelm me.

Subtle and steady.
Thats how I would describe it.

She's gonna be the first girl to meet my whole family. The first official.
This is very meaningful.

My rusted vocabulary cannot describe how deep and rooted this blossomed rose is.

I could not imagine myself holding her almost a year ago,
That is why when I am beside her I feel as though it is surreal.

Like a pauper holding a million dollars,
Or a Peasant marrying a princess.
A Disney production.

Stuff of dramas and movies.

Yet, here I am, living in that scene.

A dream come true.
The first dream that came true for me.

Need Perspective

2011-08-30T23:30:00.005+08:00

Back to school.

Was a very short holiday and I thought I could at least get a chance to finally go out with Jsmn for once. A whole day.

But apparently it wasn't meant to be , YET.

I always believe that there is always right time , if it doesn't happen , there is some reason that God is preventing it from happening.

I shall wait for that day to come around. I know it'd be awesome, as always. :D

Time to rant.

SCHOOOL SUCKS

every weekday from 9am-5pm. chiong chiong chiong.
I don't like the playful people inside either, wholeday play iphone.
They are nice people, but whole day play play. sian only.
I need abit more seriousness.

I need a playlist to help me focus.
I need inspiration.

Sigh, I need space.

Time to reflect.

Then again, everybody is going through the same thing.
We all have to make the best of what we have.
No point whining and being annoyed.
The people are nice and its only the first day. Slack is ok.

Conclusion

I need to work on how to work.
In this current scenario.

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I also need to go back to my more organised life.
I believe things will be better that way.

Holiday?

2011-08-09T15:04:00.003+08:00

I'm in school on a public holiday and its national day.
Feeling ZERO patriotism and ZERO mood for holiday.
On the contrary, I have a total mood for school.
Or homework/project, whatever you might want to call it.

Its been a pretty cool month.
Though I've updated less than little, I had alot of fun.

Driving around to eat on Ray's birthday was very fun.
I had my first buffalo wing at sunset grill and many other first time eating awesome food.

I should have introduced them to S11@amk's Chicken Rice though..
Ahh well.
PRetty cool outing.

I missed my sec school friends alot, so much has happened and I have missed so much.
Time to go and bond again.

I'm in school now buffering before doing my work.
Gonna watch one episode of big bang theory,then get down to business.
I'm way short of sketches, i need another 50+ or at least I think I do.

The Doctor's way of doing things is so self dependent and I can't really do my work responsibly, which kind of explains why I am here today. On a public holiday, haha

So thats that, till i update again, see ya.

Exhausted.

2011-07-29T09:34:00.004+08:00

This week was very exhausting.
I had lots of late nights..

Jun hao's birthday celebration was very fun.
It wasn't the activities that made it fun , its more like the company that made it fun.

I realised I've been very distant from everyone. Its kinda sad, I'm kinda sad.
I mean these people has been with me since Sec 1, its been 7 years of friendship.
Don't wanna lose such important people in my life.

I'm in class now, thinking of what to do for my SPD assignment 2.
Wait, more like how to do it. I know what I want to do already.

PDi is really time consuming, I mean, its not textbooks and stuff. Its like an art, like picking up a new skill like piano or some musical instrument. Time and effort is required.

You can't simply just DO IT.
You can't memorise it.
You only can push yourself through the mud.
Its more like, no pain , no gain.

Pain of losing time to homework, pain of not being able to do something else.

I think its difficult for people to understand.
When people ask why my GPA so low, what can I say?
Its not simple.
I tried my best, didn't procrastinate much, lesser and lesser actually.
But the Score is still about the same.
I tend to think it is because some people who are gifted with sketching set the benchmark and I can't reach that.
Its sad, but real.

Oh well, what to do, I'm trying my best.
If people want to judge me, just let them be.
I know what I've done and I'm satisfied, knowing theres more to improve.

Stress?

2011-07-14T23:36:00.002+08:00

I think I'm pretty stressed these days but I just tend to put it aside.
Or at least try to.

I don't know, I mean, I'd usually say to myself "fuck it, I'm gonna finish this job at minimal effort."

But now its like "GDI! why can't I get this perfectly done????"

I'm pushing myself to do more, but its not working. I'm doing more but less.

More quality stuff but less work. Maybe.
I can't judge for myself.

Today I exploded in class. The lab machine didn't work and the lecturer didn't help much.
Which kind of pissed me off totally.

But usually I'd just think fast and change the machine.

Something is wrong, I'd better find a way to fix it before I do wrong things.
I know what wrong stuff I'm capable of.
For those who've been with me since sec or pri school also will definitely know.

This isn't good, I've seen this road far too many times to know whats on the other end.

Financials ain't helping either. -_-

Dumbass idiots from sbs and smrt want to increase their prices again.

Can't they use their brains and think of some other inlet of earnings? Seriously?
Pfft. Idiots. They have access to humans and that's all they are doing.
They only want more for themselves and leaving society in ruins.
what mother fucking bitches.
They don't have a heart.

Okay, I just exploded there again for no reason. -_-
Sheesh, this is getting bad. I need to chillax.

Fresh Air.

2011-07-05T00:11:00.002+08:00

After 2 weeks of hectic work and post holiday stress,

I finally got a chance to hold her without work looming over my shoulder.

Very happy :)

Reached school at 1.15pm today, printed some stuff and talked to Crystal.

Funny how we are in the same school and same course and study in the same geographical area so small , yet we don't see each other so often.

Went to class , presented and went to C4 with khai and joseph. Funny duo, very fun people. Then went back to class for awhile and class ended!

Went out with Jasmine. :D Wanted to watch Transformers but all those dumbass youths celebrating youth day bought all the tickets. Damn sad sia. So we went shopping.

Plans always go haywire. haha

Now I'm home ,hungry and tired. BUT! excited about tmr! :D

勇氣.

2011-07-03T23:58:00.002+08:00

终于做了这个决定别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你放在我手心里你的真心

Wu~

终于做了这个决定别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃 (Yeah-Yeah-Yeah~)

如果我的坚强任性会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你
Woo-Oh~ Ao~

爱真的需要勇气来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你放在我手心里你的真心

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Today was pretty fun? I guess.

At first i thought, okay, go to church, try to listen then head home and sketch.

But as far as plans go, they often just go haywire .

Well, at least in my case.

So, after church me and zhe wei went around asking for people to go play LAN. I really want to play LAN , alot of people say its a waste of money, but really, I think that LAN is a good way of bonding.

Through playing games side by side, you really get to experience first hand the kind of person your friend is. If you play online, you cannot see the person's expressions.

Expressions tell what the person is really feeling.

Sometimes the game pushes us to desperation and you see what kind of person your friend turns into onsite. Its really more than just the game. Too bad alot of people don't see it the way I do.

After LAN I went for dinner and headed home.

At home, I helped my mum take care of my sister's kids- Joaquim and Jewel.

Joaquim is really energetic and can do alot of things you can never expect.

Jewel just wants to be carried all the time.

so yea, hands full with the kids. I don't ever want to have kids till I'm ready man. Too much work.

But they are cute nonetheless. Quite fun.

So yea, thats my day.

Now I'm here in the living room, satisfied with the life I have. (:

Problem?

2011-07-02T00:45:00.004+08:00

Its 12.45am on saturday and I'm typing this post. Feeling awake and energised.

I went for my interview at ODM Innovations and I think I did badly in the interview, I felt like I didn't impress the interviewer. :(

NONETHELESS! I feel soooo much better after I got it over with! :D

So, I sort of left with a bitter sweet feeling.

After a walk around the mall in the night, I felt alot better, guess its because of the company. :D

There is alot of work to be done, alot of researching and alot of idea generation.

These kinda things can really cause my brain to explode within my skull.

I want to do them quickly and finish them off with as quality standard as I can because its my 2nd last semester, better do it properly!

I feel very very very very very, extra stress. BUT!

I'm very glad I'm feeling stressed because its good.

Better than feeling lazy and relaxed.

I must admit, at first I was pretty down and super tired. Guess its because of the holidays, "post holiday syndrome " as Ray calls it. hahaha

I think stress is good, but when..

stress turns to worry and doubt because you might not finish it in time.

and I start asking myself, why! is it because I cannot do it? I'm too lousy ? - Self morale drops.

and everyone knows how low morale leads to depression,

THEN! its not good. or at least that's how I perceive it.

So, I've decided to cut that cycle and just stick with stress, because I have nothing to worry about, I have the necessary skills to do it, everyone does.

Time management at this point is a critical practice

Confidence is key.

One of the many keys.

Glimmer.

2011-06-29T11:25:00.005+08:00

Hope is but nothing without faith.

Faith is but nothing without God.

I'm shortlisted as one of the students who will go for an interview with ODMasia situated in HK and ODM Innovations in Singapore for internship. I'm really glad I was given this opportunity.

I'm stressed, happy and shocked. I've gotta prepare a portfolio to present to them on friday, and that's only 2 days(or one day) away! Its gonna be a very rushed portfolio.

Was in school , supposed to be doing EBP,but I'm very afraid that my portfolio might not be a match for those pitting against me to get that job.

Sherwayne, Jordan, John, Nicholas. All these people undoubtedly perform better in school.

BUT

If this opportunity was given to me and I asked for it, then I must have some sort of edge that should be presented. I need to know what that is and show it.

Other than that, I wish I could have more time. School has been hectic and tiring.

Work , work, work.

Sigh :/

Being a PDi student is next to being dead.

But a student's gotta do what a student's has gotta do.

I'm home now

and there's like an intergalactic battle in space between 4 colonies of aliens

each having more than twenty magnificent spacecraft carriers floating towards each other,

with hundreds of hangars on each side, much like the surface of an orange peel.

On it's bow , two giant cylinders protrude out, aimed and targeted at their enemy.

Some of them even have force-field shields.

Silence fills the air as these giants loom towards each other in a graceful formation.....

Suddenly,each of these titans sprawls out 50-100 space fighters from each hanger!

The little souls of these alien space pilots embrace the final moments of tranquility...

The cylinders gives a pink glow and as if like a black hole, sucking particles from the surroundings.

it glows brighter and brighter...

Swarms of little space craft carriers accelerated and plunged into battle !

MAJOR EXPLOSIONS!*

Missiles flare off the wings of the space craft, zooming, swooping, corkscrews, loops.

Rattling of guns and other alien weapons fill the ear drums of the space pilots.

Skilled pilots weave through the space craft mess to take out their enemies.

The cylinders stop sucking all of the sudden-glows brightly like the sun.

A certain species of alien space crafts evacuate the war zone very quickly, like dandelions vigorously being blown off.

A pillar of light bursts out of the cylinders towards the war zone.

BOOM!

Yeaaa.....

These are my current thoughts.

Each of these colonies have their meaning.

EBP

PIP

DFM

Internship.

Their battle is tearing a hole in my head.

ARGH!!!

Be still.

2011-06-27T22:06:00.003+08:00

First day of school was pretty alright I guess. I can't say school is awesome because there's still work. haha

EBP test today, I guess I was over confident. Oh well... Think I'm going to be the worst in class. BAH! cares me not.

Stayed back after school today to finish up my WISP and ISM. Taxing. Very taxing. Stress? definitely.

I'm tired. Tired of doing work. Tired of looking ahead in my days and seeing piles of work yet no promising future. The future seems so bleak. So very dark. Don't know what I'm going to be or what I'm going to do.

Sigh! Gotta wait till 11pm for Gretchen to come online, need her part for ISM.

Screw hotmail for closing my account. Seriously.

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I need discipline.

I realized I've been bumping around too much. Doing things I feel like doing without thinking about others.

Acting before Analysis.

I need to organize things properly.

Part of stopping to bump around and discipline is organizing my time. I need that.

Turbulence.

2011-06-26T21:53:00.004+08:00

Today was pretty rough. I'm worn out..

Was already very tired this morning.

My mum kept shouting about forcing everyone up from their beds.

Just to go to church.

I couldn't wake up, but I could subconsciously hear her thundering voice.

She gave up and left for church first with my little brother,leaving me and my older brother at home.

My older brother woke me up 2 hours later and asked me to go to church, I said nicely that I was tired and didn't want to go. Yet he insisted. so..

I exclaimed FUCK LA and wore the nearest pants and a jersey + slippers out of the house.

My brother's reaction was EPIC.

When we were flagging for a cab , the cab was vacant (green colour) yet he didn't want to fetch us. so..

I gave the cabby the finger. Straight in his windscreen.

I must say , I was very very very frustrated this morning.

When we reached sengkang, my brother went to 7-11 to get me coffee. When he did, I took a bus and went home.

Slept through out the journey back home.

When I reached home, I faced another problem.

I needed me to be calm. So I prayed. Then fell asleep.

I dreamt I was at a spa with my friends and it was very relaxing. Was at peace.

When I woke up, I did some usual routine on the internet.

NOPE. NO PORN OKAY! hahaha

then left for dinner, I had crabs and kahlua , it was a pretty good dinner I must say.

My niece was very cute, she kinda brightened my day.

Now I'm home, worn out, tired, stressed for tomorrow's paper.

Please.

2011-06-26T12:37:00.008+08:00

Used to think love is non-existent.

Just a figment of my imagination.

I realized you.

I love you.

I know its going to be rough.

Yet.

I love you.

I had no doubts.

I let down my walls.

Let someone in.

Like the first time.

Gave all I could.

Knowing it was a great risk.

A risk worth taking.

I love you.

Foolish?

I love you.

I know there's something.

Its still in you.

Some part of you longs for me.

No matter how small.

I love you.

I need help,

I need help.

or do I?

Back and Forth

2011-06-24T02:31:00.002+08:00

Today I woke up missing my girl so badly , so I went to meet her in the east.

After that I had to go back to the west side to get the car and fetch my little brother who just came back from the mission trip. Then we headed back to the west again.

Now I'm home, epic day of going from west to east to west to east to west again.

Anyway, my eyesight is damn good after i drinking. I mean , one day after.

I can see much better as if I were wearing my glasses.

"I say , yes, you look wonderful tonight" :)

Reunion.

2011-06-22T00:56:00.002+08:00

Went out to meet Jsmn at AMK library. The library damn ulu, but its a good thing because there isn't much of a crowd there. We met up to do work , but i started drifting off and doing my own things online. After a hardcore hour of no progress whatsoever on my EBP project we headed off to Serangoon Gardens.

Met up with Sherwayne , Marc and Yimei first then wild Cherny and Jason appeared from tall grass! haha, wanted to eat and chompz but there was a whole lot of people there. Kinda sucks, i wanted to spend less and drink a TALL glass of sugar cane but oh well.

SOMETIMES WE NEED TO MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION!

So we headed to Sushi Tei. There we had a discount and great food. Cherny used to work there. Jason was entertaining and coupled together with Cherny, it was endless entertainment. HAHA, they are the funniest people ever. The jokes were kinda dirty and Yimei's reaction was damn epic. hahah!

The rest of us were cool. Couldn't help it.HAW HAW HAW.

Then we headed home, I sent Jsmn home first.

And now I'm home! :D

The Secret Revival.

2011-06-21T01:34:00.003+08:00

My blog is amazingly revived. I just got reminded not along ago of why I even blogged all those years ago. It reminded me of who I was.

Life these days move so quickly and we have to pick up so many new ideas , ways of living and many other things that we actually forget who we were, who we are.

I'm talking about the events that brought us to this point where we are standing today.

I'm suddenly overwhelmed by myself.

Looking at the person in the past, there were so many good morals and thinking patterns I've left behind.

There were also bad ones, which is good that I left them there.

So , HEY JOWELL 10 YEARS IN THE FUTURE, remember today and the day's before , remember to check yourself again when you grow up. You'll need it. :D

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I'm very happy with the people I have with me these days.

Of all those years I've gone through, I've found these people to be real and trusted.

Secondary School Friends

USS was epic, but I wish everyone went. I've seen these people since , longest, 2005. Some of us have been friends for half a decade already. They are awesome people. Experiences,tears,blood,friction - we've been through that.

I wish I had more time to meet buddy but its not easy.

Poly friends

Very fast paced people, relationships fluctuate very frequently. I'm happy with the people I have with me today. Through all the fluctuations so far, these people stayed here. MES was a very cool experience, real people can be found there.

Church

Zhe wei hasn't forgotten me and I'm very glad to have him as my friend.

Girlfriend

The most awesome girl I've met. 'nuff said. :)

Just want to say that I'm very satisfied with what I have.

2010-03-10T02:51:00.001+08:00

Welcome to Tumblr <--------------Fixed Link

RELINK!

2010-02-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

Welcome to Tumblr.

Post number 100!

2010-02-18T22:11:00.003+08:00

WHoa, this is post 100! yay!

haha, today i went to school and like, studied .. haha

EG2 isnt that bad afterall, i managed to complete one paper though not thoroughly- exceeded my expectations.. ahaha

Exciting events lined up for my march holidays.. ITS GONNA BE FUNFUNFUNFUN! FUCKING FUN! :X

I'm just too stressed now and all..

Tmr's paper starts at 9am-11am.

THen got jamming session afterwards..

Oh i'm moving to tumblr now ..

2010-02-17T21:40:00.002+08:00

Today i failed damn badly.

While at macs KAP I needed assists from sherwayne or elijah for almost every question.

I'm serious. i'm a math failure.

CAN SOMEBODY DROP ME AN AWESOME MODULE THAT I CAN PASS WITH MY TALENTS INSTEAD????

haiz.. fail. FAIL.

With lesser than 24 hours to go,i feel ashamed and upset at myself.

I'M A EFFING NOOB.

RAHHH!~ i gotta FORCE MY WAY THROUGH THIS SHIT. oh! THIS and SHIT are Palindromes -words that can be read forwards and backwards.AWESOME.

WHY PDi GOT NO ENGLISH RELATED SHIT!!! haiz....

No language modules... i will fail..

I want normal!

2010-02-17T10:54:00.003+08:00

Test on friday! GG? yes! hahaha

The worse thing is the weight-age is about 40%! WTFWTFWTF.

GG? YES!

How about other stuff you may ask , like besides my studies.

Somethings are meant to be.

Others ain't supposed to be that way and i have to solve it.

Theres a misunderstanding thats out there and i need to solve it. I don't think its called a misunderstanding. I think its called a .. i dunno, its my fault. I need to make clear my intentions or else she'll think she's bitten again. "once bitten, twice shy"

All I want is for things to go back the way it was, like in aug or something.

I learnt that I was truly happy only when things were like last time.

Now i understand " joy is right beside you, but stubbornness set you out to find false joy.."

2010-02-15T23:45:00.002+08:00

dont say all those things anymore.

dont say you love me.

dont say i need to be your boy.

dont say it'll be better

cos i just fixed my life back. i just went back to what made me happy from the inside.

I cant go on like this.

Dont beg so badly already. Enough is enough..

This is it. Like how good stories have a bad ending.

If you ever do contact me for this reason again. I will shun you . so dont do this anymore.

Be happy with what you have. Dont make matters worse. I dont wanna hear you say those things no more.

2010-02-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

hmm, dunno whats going on but....

haha?

Today was a wierd day, started off bad and ended off... hmmm

relatively bad? haha

sucks.

bbla blablabla!~

2010-02-10T11:56:00.002+08:00

Stressed and sian.

So many things i haven do yet and still need to do. damn sianz.

Sketches!~

Things I cant control

2010-02-08T00:03:00.004+08:00

I had a good day today..

Till I came home, my mum nagged, shouted at me.

I tried to on my comp while she nagged because i wanted to catch you while you're still there but she screamed at me for doing so-said it was rude.

After a long while, she made me try clothes and walked angrily into the room and slept.

I think you might not believe me if I said that..

If she didn't do that, i guess i might just be able to come online before you ever get mad at me.

Some stuff i really really wished i could control. really.

All those times i spent with my friends today, i missed you all that while.

I ignored my friends just to msg you.

Lagged behind and was lost from them cos i msged you

I got pissed at my friends for peeping at my msg.

I didn't really talked to them for more than half the day.

I should not come out with so many points alr,before anybody thinks its too fake.

Sure, it may sound like a lie, or a long excuse.

But you can approach any of my friends they'd tell you I was definitely thinking of you.

Even when shopping for my own things..

I guess, it all added up to nothing.

cos in the end, it didn't really matter.

All I can blame is me for being so unlucky to catch my mom in such a mood.

This is why I don't deserve anything. Never. For being so unlucky.

I hope all the best for myself tmr.

i'm a sweat machine!

2010-01-26T15:51:00.003+08:00

Update...

got alot of work to do :(

*Alarm clock
-prototype
-story board
-i wna redo my mood board
-need to mount both story and mood board on styrofoam thingy
-final drawing

*Materials design and appl
-report(need to rephrase like 1.5k words)
-project 2 due by 8 feb(just FABulous)
-exam comin up... :(

haiz... but the stress was all gone just now.. (:

now i'm home and i've got work at 6.45 tmr - the venue is unknown

tired as hell... i need to get myself a water bottle to hydrate myself mann..
BECAUSE, i'm a sweat machine!

haiz...

2010-01-15T21:40:00.002+08:00

Today I went to school as per normal, ended at 4pm, then went to dental with Rachel.

Had lotsa good times- SOT SOT times. hahaha :)

Soup spooned, frolicked, KFC then bus home..

After she got off, then i getting off that time, my coins flew out.
Then the bus uncle closed the door and drove off before i got up.
damn sian. so many people on the bus but no one stopped the uncle.

All these kinda stuff keeps happening to me. :(

2010-01-14T21:52:00.002+08:00

Today i had to wake up in the morning for soccer!

And omg, li yan-some mental girl in my class,i'm not being mean. i'm serious- whose in soccer for Sports and Wellness made this damn fugly pose.

Like trying to be sexy like that=.= Super duper JOKE. HAHA

Anyway, I bought drinks for her and went to CATS class..

In CATS class, i irritated this irritating guy damn badly. But it felt so good.

HAHA

okay, then i went on to do JAE. so boring la, i ended up studying math.

then got math retest at 6.15, saw nigel took test with him, then went home.

Him

2009-12-11T10:35:00.001+08:00

WOOHOO! I FINALLY UPDATED MY BLOG! in class somemore, next week common test somemore, WOOO!~

2009-08-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

I'm back.. haha, gonna change blog skin soon, but i doubt ppl will see my blog anymore, IT DUN MATTER! :)

2009-07-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

2009-06-21T23:42:00.003+08:00

thoroughly sianzified.
i always fight a losing battle
dunno why
always lose de
haish

failure yet again. what can i say. its in my blood man.i was never born to win anything. never first at anything.

although i have not been updating about how terrible my year has been, this year has never gotten any more better than it got worse.
sux.

i hope 2010 comes before i die..

warm on the outside cold in the inside, thats me.

why do i always have to chase butterflies on molten lava?

sigh*

2009-06-16T02:46:00.002+08:00

back to blogging... again..

haiz...

i feel so depressed these days..
so many things have changed for me , and its really alot..
cant keep up with these changes...

feel so lifeless..

2009-06-14T00:09:00.002+08:00

Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?

cheek!

How do you feel when you wake up this morning?

sian..

Who was the last person you took a photo with?

not sure leh, recently keep taking photos like nobody's business, so i lost track

Would you consider yourself to be spoilt?

Probably? nt sure...

Would you ever donate blood?

never..

Have you had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex?

HAVE! :D it'll never be a "HAD"

Do you want someone dead?

nah!

What does your last message says?

Nigel-Haha. Okay:) Nvm.

What are you thinking about right now?

thinking about sleep and how boring my life is. haha-i'm toying with the idea of what would happen if ppl were to watch my life in the cinema,

Do you wish someone to be with you right now?

yea.

What is the time you go to bed last night?

2 am

Where did you buy the T-shirt you're wearing now?

i'm half naked!HAHAHAHAHA

Is someone on your mind?

yep..

Who was the last person who texted you?

nigel png

2009-05-03T23:36:00.002+08:00

SIAN AH!!!!!!~

haha, 80/100 thumbnail sketches drawn... =.= heavy homework...

CHIONG AH!

ITs time to get serious! Homework is piling and piling!

or so i feel.. haha

no time for leisure le, my bike's been rotting for weeks! sian... i wanna cycle again...

bored TO THE MAX! X)

2009-04-28T23:25:00.002+08:00

GAH!!!

SUDDENLY GOT SO MANNNYYYYYY HOMEWORKS!

-___________-

HOMEWORKSSSS! GOT PLURAL DE! (just cr8ed by me.)

No time for guitar....

ARGH!!

once i stop, the homeworkS pile and pile and pile till you have to redefine the meaning of mountain!

haha..

tried Stage F'actor today(drama)

NOT MY CUP OF TEH!~ ahha!

HOnestly!

i'm like, whoa, their english not bad ah... ok la can tahan...

wha! all mass comm.. ok la, be the first PDi lor...

wha! all the people there so high ah! abit intimidated...

WHA GOT SLANG ONE AH!~
i'm outta here~~~

now you know why not my cup of "TEH" ah... cos i dun drink "TEA" X)
i make myself laugh so hard smtimes! HAHA!!

TMR I'M GONNA TRY CONOEING!

HUA CHUAN! WOOT!~

2009-04-25T01:36:00.001+08:00

0.0

2009-04-23T22:26:00.005+08:00

I WANNA DIE !!

I cant even joke in class properly..
its either lecturers are too strict or they have no sense of humor. =.=
sometimes also cos i feel other ppl more funny, so i keep quiet...

I'm like a salt water fish being put into fresh water..

I WANNA EXPLODE!!! TALK NONSENSE NON-STOP! DAMMIT.

= = ╬
__

2009-04-21T19:52:00.002+08:00

OK! I shall embark on my MORE ADVENTUROUS E.guitar journey. something more challenging.. like plucking or picking or .... biting? haha

First up on my list is......

L'Arc~en~Ciel- Day break's Bell!!

Thats right! the Gundam song! gundam 00 to be exact...

heres how it sounds like!

2009-04-20T16:53:00.002+08:00

First day of Poly

Today was kinda fun,cos of the ppl and the jokes.. But kinda got tired near the end ...

Met Joe,wei xiong, gibson, jonathan, david, nelson and some girl from westwood whom i dun really talk to @ campus

Saw Huzaime, Regina, some ex-westwoodian whom i only talked to for 4 hours in my whole life cos at that time we were waiting for our hair to be cut @ the barber.

yep. thats it. Totally not used to putting information in my head anymore... tired...

heres a photo i saw of "someone" (who i refused to name cos he is Jun Hao, a friend who trusts that i won't humiliate him on my blog.XP) HAHA...

2009-04-15T02:41:00.002+08:00

Currently twitting!

twitter rocks! SHORT AND SWEET!

its a modern blog that only allows you to write up to 140 words!

its my type of blog!

you can find me here http://twitter.com/darkgun9!!!

2009-04-15T00:43:00.003+08:00

=0!

Whats this?

CLARIE'S HORNY EVIDENCE!

*later on he continued explaining tat the cravings mean playing board games but it was not saved.

TOO BAD! :D its a joke, no intended seriousness whatsoever!

2009-04-15T00:09:00.002+08:00

This sucks.

i cant sneak out at night to spend my sleepless nights anymore.

all i can do is lay on my bed ,plug my ears to music and wish i could go to dream land immediately.

i wanna play BBALL!! but here got no bball courts.. sian..

in fact, this whole year SUCKS!!!!!!!!

不運!不運!不運!

SIGH!

its either,

1/10 things that happened this year are good.

OR!

the bad stuff that happens had more impact than good stuff.

whatever it is,i only can hope tmr will be better.

school starting soon... and ihave yet to make any friends . i'm gonna kill myself if i cant find any project mates.

=___=|||

不運!

maybe ending the post with a smiley will help make my day better!HAHA

:D

2009-04-07T18:24:00.003+08:00

heyhey!

I'm being ignored, dunno what i did wrong leh... *shrugs* sigh..

ok! i just slept well again! woot! i dunno, i think i never exercise thats why... haha..

i dreamt i ran so slowly for some race last night. abit lame, but yeah. i dreamt of that .. hahaa! should i consider it a nightmare? haha..

Tommorrow will be different altogether.

2009-04-06T01:02:00.002+08:00

Hey all!

i'm finding it hard to sleep at night.
smth's bothering me and i dunno what it is.
i list out all the possibilities of whats worrying me,
but nth on the list is bothering me terribly.
i seriously dunno whats wrong.

like theres a burden , but i cant tell what it is about.
never had this kinda a feeling before.

maybe smth's about to go horribly wrong?
maybe its my health?

but , my dear readers, do not worry, i just have like 1 hr kinda insomnia.
minor insomnia. haha

SO VERY tired, but cant sleep.
its been around for quite some time le... just sorta took it seriously now.

haiz.....

2009-04-03T00:56:00.003+08:00

today
was
utterly
boring.
i mean yesterday,since its past 12.

Lets see... my most exciting part of the day was eating at pizza hut -celebrating my lil bro's bday. WOOT!

ok.
thats about it.

I'm anti-DOTA! No more DOTA!

From this day on i shall be pure and not be stained by DOTA!

BE STRONG MY FRIENDS! DO NOT FALL TO DOTA!

what have i gotta say to DOTA?

DRIVES OUR THOUGHTS AWAY! YES IT DOES!

ONCE YOU GET HOOKED YOUR THOUGHTS GET HOOKED!

YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO BUT DOTA WHEN YOU'RE BORED!

Okay, i'm done. remind me to install warcraft and get the latest DOTA map when i get my laptop..

2009-04-01T00:49:00.002+08:00

today i went to watch 12 rounds starring john cena from WWE ..
great movie, moderate plot, non-stop thrill.NICE!

after that we played a little game in jp. VERY FUN!

then i went home...

nigel opened a chat room, and lo and behold! ! !

another DOTA session =.=

GUYS TUES SIMLIM. DUN FORGET. She Loves Mi.. I Love Her.. She Hates Mi.. I Ignore Her.. says:
jh
GUYS TUES SIMLIM. DUN FORGET. She Loves Mi.. I Love Her.. She Hates Mi.. I Ignore Her.. says:
wan dota?
Jowell says:
=.=
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
nah..
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
i wan or or le..
GUYS TUES SIMLIM. DUN FORGET. She Loves Mi.. I Love Her.. She Hates Mi.. I Ignore Her.. says:
ohhh
GUYS TUES SIMLIM. DUN FORGET. She Loves Mi.. I Love Her.. She Hates Mi.. I Ignore Her.. says:
den nvm

2009-03-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

another one! (read previous 2 posts)

-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
LOL
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
u tis idiot..
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
u put everything i said up there?
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
my god.. tell me the limit of ur dumbness

2009-03-30T23:31:00.002+08:00

this just came in after they replied and some trash talk then went back to DOTA and back on MSN again-(read earlier post)

-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
haha.. dumb..
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
u really posted huh..
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
and i wasnt dota-ing lors~!
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
i studying!
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
=(
SHENGKAI says:
back
SHENGKAI says:
hahaha
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
screw u
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
u can go back to dota le
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
hahaha
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
u playing wif clarie and nigel aR?
SHENGKAI says:
y
SHENGKAI says:
ya
SHENGKAI says:
hahaha
SHENGKAI says:
lol
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
-.-
-=ZiE=- boku wa ima sagashi hajimete temani temae says:
tell them get their sorry ass in msn
SHENGKAI says:
okok
SHENGKAI says:
lol
Ŧclaʑrie[wahaha} says:
im aldy in msn
Ŧclaʑrie[wahaha} says:
zzz
SHENGKAI says:
hahahas

2009-03-30T23:05:00.003+08:00

HI !!!

today i went out and enjoyed myself!

Anyway, we went to watch confessions of shopaholic then went to shop for fren's present...
had fun, but couldnt show properly cos my throat got worse and worse, talk also got prob... jia lat....

so i was back home , and wow my frens were playing dota and no one replied me. =.=

this was me talking to myself:

Jowell says:
hey hey
Jowell says:
can we do smth tmr?
Jowell says:
is everybody playing dota?
Jowell says:
oh no..
Jowell says:
dota is overtaking your life!
Jowell says:
get a hold of yourselves!
Jowell says:
haha
Jowell says:
everybody's ignoring me...
Jowell says:
hello
Jowell says:
watashi wa jowell desu
Jowell says:
dota
Jowell says:
dota
Jowell says:
dota
Jowell says:
defend our thick asses
Jowell says:
haha
Jowell says:
i'm gonna blog that

2009-03-29T21:43:00.003+08:00

Batam rocks! cos prices are ROCKbottom! totally cheap cheap cheap!!

haha, i bought 12 shirts for 30 sing dollars? whoa, totally hap hap happy!

played paintball and go-kart , go kart is super fun la!

and the lollipop there is like less than 10 cents!

but i missed EARTHHOUR! :( wanted to see what singapore's CBD looked like in black.

2009-03-25T21:51:00.002+08:00

wha, blog dying alr..

REVIVE!~~

haha

anyway, just went back to my usual schedule.. doing nothing. haha

before this i was doing logistics for the earthwired event... abit tiring... but its over! YAY
after that was my birthday celebration! woot!

received many gifts this year , very happy...

still got one more present haven receive yet.. i'll wait..

good things come to those who wait...

ok, so after the celebrations i'm here.

doing nothing.

my bud pestering me to get a job, but its not like i'm not trying...

so now, i'm sitting here watching taiwanese dramas ..

My frens are either @ home playing DOTA or doing something else...

i got bored of DOTA so i refused to get WC3 when they asked me to get it from them.. cos i just reformatted my com, i dun have Warcraft on my com now..

since they found a cheaper way of entertainment, they rather stay at home :X
when i want to go out ,i scared they tell me stay at home and play DOTA cheaper...

sian ah~~

2009-03-13T01:36:00.002+08:00

Whoa.... i alr planned my whole "sec sch holiday" haha

MONDAY! --- just came back from a long nite... shag, legs very unstable :X
--- GO BUY LAPTOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TUESDAY!--- GO OUT! HAVE FUN!

WEDNESDAY!--- CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY WITH CHURCH PEOPLE+ ESTHER!

THURSDAY!--- CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY WITH THE GUYS!

FRIDAY!--- actually haven plan my friday... hmm? dunno...

SATURDAY!--- AYL in the AFterNOON! then FFW at nite

SUNDAY !! --- CHURCH!

There goes my week... haha... quite happy meeting esther again, good bud! i mean good buddy! haha...

cant wait for earthwired to come! FUN FUN FUN....
After that can start relaxing and thinking about my presents !
then can start using my laptop!
then can have more regular updates!
.............
ok, scrape the last point

2009-03-10T13:16:00.002+08:00

SO what would your choice be?

i choose chasing admirer!
haaha...

ok, just ending my random tots properly. haha

anyway, yesterday i went to cut my hair then went home...
reach home alr , zit tao rush to abigail's birthday dinner..

We ate seoul Garden and went to take neoprints... quite a fun night..

after that i got high on nothing @ the chalet for Yun Jie's departure into Manliness. haha!

i guess i was too restless and stressed that i had to release it all @ the chalet!

Now.... haiz... tired siol... dying soon... BUT! i still have to call up some ppl for the earthwired event...

CHIONG AHHHhhhhhhh.......................zzzzzzzZZZZZZZ

2009-03-07T02:41:00.002+08:00

Emo post*

huh! finally i admit i'm emoing eh?

HAHA! NOT!

haha, firstly i dun believe theres such a thing called EMO!

first-point-fively, theres only depression and no EMO.

secondly , if there's a thing called EMO , it'd might as well be ELMO's best friend!

haha, second point is pure nonsense.. alright, enough of these "lame jowell jokes" that obviously dun make ppl laugh. ...... Funny rite? hhahahahah....

ok, in my world, theres no such thing as emo, only thinking. i believe that thinking too much causes me to fall into no-smile mode. just no-smile only, not depressed.

ANYWAY!

i've been thinking...

random thought! caused only because i was too bored.(whoa catchy tune to it)

i try to put myself in a position where you've been admiring this person your whole life, and poof* this person disappears. you feel so sad,so depressed-but no EMO- but you push yyourself to carry on!

then one day this person returns -with another admirer! (haha-just making this interesting)
OH NO!!!!!!!!!! (haha-trying very hard)
but you know you have an admirer yourself! someone whos willing to be yours forever...ever...ever..ever.... and no competition to it!

will you choose to :
A)chase person
B)chase admirer
C)chase Mr Bolt-currently holding the world record for fastest sprint~!
D)none of the above

MAKE YOUR CHOICE NOW! you know this may be a life changing decision.I think i'll go with choice................................................................................................

i just thought up to this point, then suddenly earthwired things popped into the train of thoughts, causing an immense earthshattering explosion that made my vision of the random thoughts be thrown into the abyss-leaving me with more logistics to think about,

more problems with no solutions.

oh well, i guess things will and CAN be sorted out.

XIONG DE WO LAI ZUO!

2009-02-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

dunno what to post alr... bt got feeling to post, haha!

hmmm....

OH! I LOST MY HAT! :'( !!

sian ! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wth!

haiz....

seriously suay this whole year , something is WRONG!

quik! 2009 DISAPPEAR! I"M TIRED OF BEING SO SUAY!

SIAN AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-26T23:26:00.003+08:00

Today went to sentosa! woot! haha! after that watched movie... yay!

in the movie kenna owned. why? cos the whole cinema inside the ratio of guys to girls is 1 :10 .

AMAZING!

haha!

2 things made me very disturbed today. like, i dunno.... super disturbed. abit pissed, abit unhappy, abit frustrated. but overall , very disturbed. hmm...

haha, oh well. .

2009-02-22T22:52:00.002+08:00

today i rode my bike around jurong... played DOTA again together with my friends. quite fun!

actually i was waiting for someone to call me from church to go out, but then nobody did..

i wonder why they're giving me the cold shoulder... is it cos of the mistakes i've made?

if it's that , then i'll try harder not to make mistakes..

i dunno...i'm pretty vexed...

oh well, maybe i've been thinking too much, and maybe i'm the one who gave the cold shoulder first..

OR maybe i've changed-for the worst. hmmmm.....

someone told me "if your walk with God is bad, it'll affect your rs with men"

oh well... i dunno for sure,just tired of this cold war and very very very disturbed-like extremely... but i know i should just trust God and act according to his directions..

"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me." John 14:1

2009-02-19T00:28:00.002+08:00

This few days we've been handling our bikes. Cos of the steep ,sudden increase of bus fares we've decided to find an alternative.

but this alternative is not feasible when i'm going to sengkang.. :(

nonetheless! ITS GOOD TO HAVE A FEW BIKES AROUND NOW! (cos i dun need to give ppl a ride anymore.) heh heh.... My Pro bono publico rides ARE FINALLY OVER! HAPPY SIOL!

we've been modifying our , actually, they've been modifying they're bikes with great passion! haha! SO focused, that i got bored after awhile cos i didnt modify my all-too-spectacular BIKE! WAHAHA! jkjk...

NIGEL'S BIKE VERY CHIO! wha! its black and pink! super CHIO! WOO! haha. hmm... maybe i should get a pic of the bikes soon.

2009-02-15T00:07:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling rather drained from going to church every weekend.

I want to go , but some times i wonder if its too far, and if its really worth it.

haiz.. can i leave this church one day? :X i dunno, maybe its too far.

i mean , going such a long distance for church when i can just be @ some other church. Making friends closer to home.

Maybe i'm a little paranoid or smth. or maybe i'm right.

but leaving this church would make my mum unhappy. or even my siblings.

but i'm really tired from all these traveling.

i wanna take a break. but it would seem like i'm back sliding for some reason that may make other ppl guilty.
but thats not my intention.
AH! HECK about what others think.

what if i'm really just tired of going all the way to sengkang to see ppl having more freedom than me , people who can spend more time with each other more frequently.

why should i go so far just to spend time with church frens when i've got my family and friends back here ,near home?

Friends who treasure me,who knows me well.

why should i spend time with people so far away wh0 eventually i find difficult to talk to when i
can just be myself right here. where i feel a stronger sense of belonging.

that brings me to the question.

Why cant i be myself after all these years i've spent in church, with the ppl i've known since my conscience was born?

maybe i'm just stuck in my little world. and im just thinking like some little kid.

maybe im feeling too detached from church when i really am attached.

maybe i can make it all better but i just dunno how

maybe this is just a passing tot.

or maybe this might be a turning point.

maybe i dunno which is more worthwhile.

maybe this is something worth pondering about.

maybe its something i shouldnt do.

maybe i'm just lazy.

or crazy.

maybe its time to think of a better solution.

maybe i'm just being irritating.

maybe i've spent too much time traveling.

when it could be spent with the people around me.

maybe i'm going too far for hope that can be found at home.

maybe i'm pushing myself too hard.

maybe i should be focusing more @ home.

maybe i just need some sleep.

I dun mean to hurt or insult anyone in any way and dun worry, i'm not depressed.
Just some open thoughts here.

2009-02-13T16:04:00.002+08:00

I've been rotting at home! yay!

haha, played dota with junhao , sheng kai and ray last nite. fun! when me and jun hao used mic to converse about strategies. haha!

other then that. . hmmm

Went to crash my EX-school's sports day 2 days ago. ahaha! jkjk, we just went to visit. then wha! TECK KWANG RUN DAMN FAST! WA LAO EH! LIKE WHOA! AWSOME MAN! haha!

you know who can be faster than him? SAFIE! HE RAN LIKE SUPER FAST!

you know who can be faster than safie? NIGEL PNG! but sadly he ended his career. :(

one moment of silence please... haha!

after that we went to eat mac value lunch then played lan at gek poh

then played bball at temple bball court.

exciting rite? haha!

2009-02-11T06:35:00.002+08:00

dunno what to post, so i'm just showing you what i'm currently watching...

its a Taiwanese called 败犬女王

about a younger guy loving a older woman with a difference of 8 yrs!
omg! the sickest show ever! haha! can you imagine that? 25 with a 33 yr old!

SICK! haha

thats why i'm watching it. haha! its the most interesting plot yet!
i meant interesting as weird. haha!

well, heres the preview.

2009-02-08T01:06:00.005+08:00

Remember i once updated about how each day of the new year was terrible to me?

yep, it never stopped.

a few days ago i made my fren upset..

just yesterday my e-z link card got confiscated because i paid too little-i was ready to pay more. and trust me i didnt let the bus driver off without any nasty remarks. i have to wait till thursday before i can take back my e-zlink

yesterday i messed up something again.

great ain't it?

today i have to publicise to another church about an upcoming event alone. which was not according to plan.

seriously. i'm annoyed and tired at myself. of course i dun blame anyone for this..
now all i look forward to in a day is sleep. quiet escape.

2009-02-05T01:59:00.002+08:00

I think my blog is dying... hmm... OF COS IT IS! haha-time to update!

today i went to cineleisure to book a room. DUN WORRY! ALL GUYS! wait. that doesnt sound rite either.... haha! anyway.... booked a room to watch some thriller movie.. haha, we watched DISTURBIA! ok, dun go thinking Rihanna or whatever . its totally not her. it about this guy who... AH wth.. go check it out yourselves ... haha, so after that we went around looking for shoes.

I really want those NIKE AIRFORCE shoes. waitaminute. lemme find a photo or smth..

ahhh here we go... haha... i saw something like this pair at suntec. but i dare not buy, cos i havent been to queensway shopping mall... so i think i'll pay that old place a visit and get a whiff of that spicy hot LAKSA! haaha...

OK! back to story... and there i was looking at price tags .. BOOM! 116bucks then.... BOOM! 125 bucks... BOOM! 150 bucks. so i was like wat the hell. haaha.

got out of heeren , back to jurong had a little fun. AND! here i am! home.

I'M ADMITTED TO PRODUCT DESIGN AND INNOVATION- NGEE ANN POLY!

2009-01-23T12:13:00.002+08:00

Recently i've been rotting at home =.= cant go out-nid to do spring cleaning. SIAN ONLY

Okayyy.... so i had nothing to do rite? rite...

so i went to watch videos ... like Show Luo's new MV-撑腰

the dance so funny! So i decided to learn abit from it ... haha..

watch

I Learnt all the dance steps alr! haha... see how desperate i am for entertainment? haha....

2009-01-20T11:27:00.001+08:00

I'm fine with everything le, i guess..

I discovered that i lost my muse cd just now. sian la! dunno why not inside the album cover. haiz...

oh well... gotta find it later...

Today i'll have to clean my room-biggest challenge of all time. hahaa

2009-01-15T22:13:00.002+08:00

Aiya, forget it , i dunno what the hell alr. Just put in 7 dumb courses , then settle the damn thing.

Dreams are called dreams for a reason anyway..

i'm tired of setting goals. freaking disappointing.

just work hard and let it flow naturally and see where i end up.

Tired of reaching endless skies
Tired of chasing Butterflies on molten ground.

2009-01-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

damn , i cant do much courses .

i'm tired.

2009-01-13T16:21:00.001+08:00

SIAN AH!

Study so fking hard then only get 19 for L1R4

fk la, can this year get any better?

no mood to post.

2009-01-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

sian.

very worried about today. haiz...

After take result sure damn depressing one.

SIGH!!!!!!!!!

i'm always depressed at my results.

no matter in school or where ever.

like events or little stuff i have or want to do.

always depressed.

If only my heart wasn't so heavy maybe i'd manage it better.

2009-01-10T22:24:00.003+08:00

I bought a whole new set of clothes. Its more vintage style. dunno how to describe , best way is to say its like LUO ZHI XIANG! something more SPESHOW! X) haha, i'm so funny sometimes. haha!
So , i was walking down the not so XIAO ZHU-rong point- WAIT! i have a joke. you know why JP is so crowded? because got alot of ZHU(pig) -ZHU-rong point. haha!- back to topic- so i started shopping in orchard-far east- walked to Options then found nothing . went to Vivo ,spade and freshbox-nothing ,so our next brilliant plan was to go back to ZHU-rong point X) to shop . GUESS WHERE WE SHOPPED ?? Options , Spade and Freshbox! haha! our life is so simple and inside the box. haha!

OK-so our next shopping expedition was to Bugis,Parco-GUESS WHERE WE SHOPPED?? yea! you got it! SPADE,FRESH BOX! haha(got no Options@Bugis) THEN we went to bugis street GUESS WHERE WE SHOPPED??yep! SPADE , FRESHBOX! haha!

ANYWAY THE POINT IS i got some SPESHOW , LUO ZHI XIANG kinda clothes @ the not so XIAO ZHU-rong Point. haha!

2009-01-09T13:07:00.002+08:00

SIAN AH! shudn't keep saying how terrible my year has been . very depressing, i know can alr... haha... I realised that i'll reach a point where the things that make my day terrible cannot be so casually said on the blog.

haha

sian only.

2009-01-06T00:49:00.002+08:00

On the forth day of the new year...

I got scolded for wanting to go steamboat - yay.

lets try to understand the situation abit...

I was told to go for family dinner, okayyy so i did..
told everyone that i couldnt go out that day due to family dinner
THEN!
my older bro tells me its been cancelled

SO! i went to ask my mum if i could go steamboat over the phone.
( she started talking first)

Mum:" YOU BETTER NOT TELL ME YOU ARE GOING OUT AH! COME HOME NOW! *nag nag nag nag*"

Me:"err... okay..."

Mum : " So what did you want to tell me?"

Me:" err ... Nothing"

Mum: " THEN CALL ME FOR WHAT?! *nagnagnag*"

Phone: "toot toot toot" she hung up

WOW. this new year so happening ...

On the 5th day..

lets just say plans didnt go all that well. it wasn't terrible - but it wasn't according to plan either.

Hurrah for my new year.

yay.

2009-01-04T00:03:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

yay.

on the first day, of new year i walked home from JP-constipated.

yay.

on the second day, i was not allowed to go out in the afternoon.

yay.

on the third day, i lost my earpiece.

yay.

today is the forth day, i'm so excited.

yay.

welcome 2009 , goodbye 2008 .
hello 17 , byebye 16.
hello loud speaker , byebye earpiece.
hello agent-WHERES MY PAY!?

The best way to start a good day
is to put on some aromatic spray
to draw some hard earned pay
go enjoy already then say
wa lau eh!
so fast may!(school alr started by then)

haha - lame poetry - very bored.

2008-12-15T02:27:00.001+08:00

Feeling so heavy hearted now... sian zit pua... =.=

anw- i calculated that for everyday i work i can buy one more piece of high grade clothing or something to wear ... haha

i wanna buy a new BED!
haha,tired of mine... old and stinky ...

I spent my day visiting my sick granny and sleeping...

WAH! my grandma lasttime sick then got many tubes attached to her body. next day go genting.. pro sia! last time la...

haha , i'm waiting for mac delivery now-cos i was sleeping when everyone was eating so i sorta missed dinner... haha

2008-12-12T12:50:00.002+08:00

TIRED!!!!!!!!!! OMG! my job OT till 3.30 am this morning! =.-

ANW!

i just woke up and now i have to go to work ... it starts at 2.30 .... serious working life! haha....

I work for some logistics company to help pack Johnnie Walker's Old Scotch whisky. 12 yr old whisky... tempting eh? haha, see the liqueur until sian alr.. haha

i packed hundreds of bottles ytd... when i say hundreds i mean above 600 bottles.. tiring!Though i get constant scratches around my wrist area from the cardboard its fun somehow... :X I'm a masochist ... MUAHAHA!

2008-11-24T13:23:00.004+08:00

Ok , i went to Anime Fest ytd @ suntec!

the atmosphere was simply .... Anime-ish... haha! no other word to put it i guess~

I TOOK TONNES OF PICTURES! i'm gonna have to split my posts into parts cos simply looking at the photos you wun know whats going on..

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PART-TOH ONE DES!

i dunno what to start with but COSPLAY! haha, some are really retarded while others are simply disgusting . only few can make it and ONE that AWED the crowd ... haha!

Lets start with the disgusting ones... :X

MASKED rider! - he's costume is abit.... WIerd? haha

NEXT!

WAIT A Minute... is this... no it cant be.... i think he could pose as some other anime like Kabuto from naruto. i mean! btw he's hELSING supposed to be a fierce manly character. but he;s totally.... OH WELL!

Guess whats this! if you can , i'll give you 2 million! (monopoly rate)
its actually deathnote- i'll leave you to guess who is who. totally not appealing to me. BORING!

So! this is it for the first installment of Anime FEST! haha - you guys should go again next year..

wAIT! theres one more! but... i think i'll show you the horrifying pic in the next post tmr

2008-11-23T23:39:00.001+08:00

here are the characteristics of the seven rings( i tot this might be interesting)

* Ring of the Sky (Orange flame): Worn by the Vongola Boss. The sky; one that colors and engulfs everything. Battle: Tsuna (W) vs. Xanxus

The remaining six rings were portrayed with different kinds of weather that affected the sky:[12]

* Ring of Rain (Blue flame): The rain; one that washes away everything. Battle: Yamamoto (W) vs. Squalo
* Ring of Storm (Red flame): The wind; one that fiercely blows away everything. Battle: Gokudera vs. Belphegor (W)
* Ring of Cloud (Purple flame): The floating cloud; one that cannot be caught and goes its own way. Battle: Hibari (W) vs. Gola Mosca
* Ring of the Sun (Yellow flame): The sun; one that illuminates the sky. Battle: Ryohei (W) vs. Lissuria
* Ring of Mist (Indigo flame): The illusion; one that cannot be captured. Battle: Chrome (W) vs. Mammon
* Ring of Thunder (Green flame): The lightning; one that harshly strikes everything. Battle: Lambo vs. Levi A Than (W)

2008-11-23T22:15:00.003+08:00

HEY GUYS ! here are the rings ! these are called vongola rings take a look !

BTW ! i took sky(mine not as nice as the picture one),
jun hao- rain
joseph-Cloud
Nigel - storm

Mist!

RAIN!

Storm!

SUn!

Lightning!

SKY!

OF cos these pictures are better than the ring we're about to buy. these in the picture might cost you 20 ++ BUCks more than the one we're buying.

OH NO! one more!

CLOUD!

2008-11-22T17:13:00.002+08:00

oh man... i'm getting lazier and lazier to update my blog..

i think it'll die off soon... haha

okayy....

ytd it was prom nite for wwss sec 4 '08 and the food was avg nothing spectacular...

I was the Prom Joker O.o haha... ok, after all the lame stunts i pulled during my years in wwss , it's not surprising i'd get that position... haha!

after that we went to slack and i stayed over at jun hao's house. . i reached home only an hour ago...haha

now i have to go to church!

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Ok i experienced people taking my photo and running away with it. and i only used the MSN Personal msg to ask for it. You ppl are asking for it! (snigger)

NOW, i'm gonna try all forms of getting it back!

I WANT MY PROM AND FAREWELL PHOTOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-08T00:58:00.002+08:00

Today was the most tiring day of my life. pls visit Ray's blog to know more. :X lazy to type.

It was a rough day today , had to do so many things and with a lack of time. like so many things suddenly fell into wrong places. Programmes clashing here and there. then i feel so bad to have to leave my frens for dinner with the cell ppl because it was becos of me that they posponed the outing from sat to sun. then everything we planned had to change. then tonight suddenly my cell called and said we were going to have a dinner tgt on sunday night-the day which i was suppose to dedicate to my frens- so i my mind suddenly broke down . thinking became near impossible.

Btw the dinner was posponed becos of my o'lvls to that date. this was planned way earlier. way way earlier.

oh well. amazing. i've became an irritant to everybody again.

and my dad is back. haiz... i always wanted to spend more time with him. but never had the will power to do so. oh well....

this week is ...... SIMPLY AMAZING - LIKE BOONDABAR! hahha

i always felt that i shud find a reason for living . So i left it to God . He's showing me the way now, step by step. Closing each option of a reason to live. I understand it now.. Each question i asked was answered. no more underestimating Faith. :)

2008-11-03T22:21:00.003+08:00

feeling depressed again. =.= went through some thoughts over and over again. feeling rather sian....

some decisions i made make me feel like a bad arse. haiz... if i get back again will it work?
i'm sorry, its not about you D.
i feel bad leaving you like that too.. but heartache is part of love right?

you told me to move on..
i did , i tried, it didnt work..
but now its after o's alr..
can try again right?
i know what they say "1 dollar 3 tries", haha..
yep, its the 3rd time if i tried again.
But i feel like an annoyance if i did try again... cos of what i said and did. . dun wanna be a prick.
HOW! haiz...

still have time to think about it .. oh well.. but i might not know what may happen next... like suddenly... a car... :X better not say.. haha

2008-10-26T22:21:00.002+08:00

i nvr study today. haiz... die.

i think tonight i study till morning then go out study somemore bah... cannot slack le... :(

Today was my older brother's bday... i gave him a pen .

nth much to blog about. . actually no mood leh... haiz..

2008-10-25T01:50:00.002+08:00

Jay Zhou 周杰伦 - shi luo fei zhu liu 失落非主流 (说好的幸福呢)

你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.
时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呢
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.
要怎么停呢

你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.
时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呢
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.
要怎么停呢
怎麽了.
你累了.
说好的.
幸福呢.
我懂了.
不说了.
爱淡了.
梦淹了.
我都还记得.
你不等了.说好的.幸福呢
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.
要怎么停呢

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Haiz... a sudden wave of depression hit me. like a 80 story tsunami hitting the coast of sunny tropical hawaii.. feel so lousy. haiz...

2008-10-23T14:32:00.002+08:00

SIAN AH! o lvls have started ! i think either i'll die collecting my results later on or die surviving.. haha!

recently ... nth much to talk about. .. except that we've been doing a bunch stunts lately. haha!

dead*

2008-10-13T11:59:00.002+08:00

uploaded some videos... More at my youtube account---> darkgun9